Woke up on the wrong side of the bed this morning... tired, grumpy & not at all feeling like myself. Went into my meditation to hopefully get back on track. While I like Lisa’s voice it was so whispery at times it was hard to hear. Perfect ... another reason to be angry.
3 years ago Before taking up my meditation practice, I would never acknowledge my negative feelings. I did not have many and always believed when you face the sun, you see no shadows. I was an incurable optimist, so I just let anything negative go without feeling it. Why would I want to feel bad?!? I do not think I was even suppressing them, just naively unaware of them and thus they never got attention, were never fed and never grew. No focus, no Energy.
But since I have been meditating and hearing we should “feel” All our feelings, I have noticed more and more times of feeling angry and trying to “feel it” makes me more angry and finding more reasons to be angry?!?
I am new to all the negative feelings I feel now and am sorry I ever took the advice to feel All my feelings. I never woke up before and felt the way I did this a.m. I used to never feel stressed or anxious but now know what those word means...?!?
Open to thoughts, feedback, suggestions?!?