This is very, very, difficult for me to do. Every time I start to say positive things about myself, I just end up criticizing myself again. Positive words only last for about an hour for me.
Years, years, and years of self criticism is very hard to reverse and erase. Especially when having family members who have been criticizing me all my life, even to this day.
I am that high school kid in this meditation, and I am that woman in this meditation.
If I don’t believe that I am worthy, or pretty, and others try to tell me I am, I believe them, but if I don’t believe it about myself then it’s not really true. It’s complicated.
I’ve been struggling with this for too long, and it’s taking a toll on me. I have to work very hard on changing my mindset. This is one of the meditations I will have to listen to everyday to remind myself to say good things. It’s the only way I can be happy.