Ur IMAGINATION RUNS AWAY W/ U...
I learned it most of the time in my every day life my mind is filled with random, fleeting, bothersome, persistent, pleasant recurring, nostalgic, disdainful, terrifying, and triumphant thoughts seemingly all at once or At the very least back to back to back. My thoughts come at me like a constant barrage of missiles,the enemy being attacked during war by a thousand ballistic torpedoes per minute, bombarding my mind and ultimately damaging my very soul. As they are incessantly fired at me with do you intention to seek and destroy all that is beautiful and dear to me. In fact they only want the things that are near and dear to me. Their heat seeking sensors look for just that – the warmed, protected and Personally favored safe Havens that I have inside. And I realize that there is NO ENEMY, Because in actuality, it’s always only me. Yep, me that sends the missles, and me that calls in that strike team; it’s me that’s hell-bent on destroying myself. Need it seeks to Rob myself of safety in the places where I feel protected.the places the places I feel safethe torpedoes being shot from the decks of tens of thousands boats making up the differenceI am the captain the lieutenant and the major. I am every single private standing at salute-all the Myriad battalions and fleets of any particular mode of thought or all engulfing feeling or mood I could possibly have or fall into all of them just waiting to rob me of my peace and sanity. I know now I don’t have to read them because it’s not them it’s me I can stop sending the bombs I can stop calling the strike team I can call my troops home, And abolish the draft so that my mind can never give this much energy to something so horrible and painful ever again. Once I do this on the true peace and stillness within myself I’ll finally be in the now and there’s nothing in my imagination Mabel to do to run away with me. Eventually there will no longer even be in the wild horses to carry me away. I will be here, NOW, as I am.