Welcoming the Messenger

Discomfort as a Messenger

It's okay to be uncomfortable or upset. You don't have to hide or deny it. Our discomfort won't kill us, but it can give us important messages about behaviours, thoughts, or relationships we need to change. Listen to it, but don't let it carry you away.

There may be a message or reason for the sadness

It's not good to push it away but rather listen to the underlying messages

Mindfulness

That I still have self doubt. That I don't trust myself with people that work for me.

I apologize to myself

I apologize for denying myself the opportunity to grieve. It's been only 3.5 years since my parents transitioned, yet I've convinced myself that I shouldn't be grieving. I'm aware that grief is lifelong, but I don't want it to be. I tend to process my emotions in a logical way instead of just letting them be. So when I don't know why I'm feeling a certain way, I become extremely frustrated. Finally, this past weekend, I let myself cry. I cried so hard. I miss them so much, it hurts. I tried to bury the pain, but that made the feeling worse. I think the Universe is reminding me that it's okay to feel sad. It's okay to not be strong all the time. It's okay to lean on others for support. It's okay to be vulnerable.

3rd Meditation

I have a tough time controlling my thoughts and they drift to external stressors.

Thoughts and Breathing

I have to let the thoughts in and watch them float bye me instead of focusing on my breathing the entire time. Still learning the balance of it all.

Introspect

Introspection to take out of your mind and into a place of calm and still.

Test anxiety

It is normal to be anxious before a big exam however I will not let my anxiety consume me and cause me to perform poorly. I will allow nervous feelings paired with feelings of capability. Positive affirmation: I am smart and knowledgeable. I can do well on this test because I know the material. My anxiety does not control me.

Day 1

The time flew by and was very simple. I want lose weight and feel better about my body, I want to move up in my career and make Arizona one of the top producing regions and be one of Susan's top managers. And thought about accepting love.

Capacity

In order to be more present with others, I need to take care of myself and my needs.

Be, Here, Now

Everything is accepted. Allow my as it is to transform. Magic in the moment.

Awareness is powerful.

I am great full for this moment to look within myself, breathe deep and get to spend time with me.

Welcoming the messenger

A true “ Gem” of a teaching , what a clear and wonderful days beginning. Sunshine.

All Messages Welcome

When taking time to be mindful a stray thought is not bad, it is the mind or body sending a message, welcome it and acknowledge it, then bring yourself back into focus.

First meditation

I learned that I get easily distracted.. kept on focusing on the sound at the back and the quality of the recording..

Messenger

Thoughts come and go. It’s ok. Rest in the breath, acknowledge the thoughts and let them go. The message maybe to listen to the thought. No action maybe required just listen.

it’s okay...

i learned that it’s okay to hurt. i’m a human with emotions. it’s okay to cry, but i have to stop at some point. i have to stop hurting, stop crying, and live my best life.

Introspection

Delving deeper into the surface layer thoughts, there is a well of calm and reassurance. I learnt again that it is there to be tapped and used so that my day/life has perspective. Stress is fleeting in the scheme of things but so is life ... why do we let it rule our lives so much. Simple answer ... we shouldn’t let it.

Discomfort

Is the signal something has to be attended. Guilt or remorse should only be felt if there was an intentional fault. Otherwise, energy must be spent in correcting the misdeed immediately, with joy and commitment. Guilt is a punishment to the self, unnecessary if there was no intention to harm.

Thoughts need to be evaluated not hastily reacted to.

To pause and take time to reflect on my thoughts and examine all the facets that precipitate them.

Listening to the discomfort

I learned that if I can learn to welcome the feelings of discomfort I have in my body, and listen to them as messengers from my true self then the person I am when I'm stressed or anxious or sad needs only to have a conversation with that messenger and allow them to show the way towards a more joyful, calm way of being. I find that I often ignore feelings of discomfort and put myself down when I have them, cutting myself off from the opportunity to learn from them. Like a child ignoring the burn from the flame.

That allowing discomfort to be and accepting it.

It is not a reflection of me, but of a moment in time. Listen to it and let it go

Getting with it

Has always been rock and roll and baby we are moving tonight vibrating like a bass drum

Day 2

Today was about introspection. Listening to a feeling or emotion and envisioning it as a messenger. Welcome it.

MINDFUNESS

Recently I’ve come to the conclusion that I am in dire need of self love . The fact that this meditation and mindfulness practice specifically mentioned and told me to thank MYSELF for the space to have time for introspection and silence and stillness is something that I never even thought to do for myself, or could do. I love it and I do appreciate it and as I️ am learning,myself.

How bad do you want to be yourself?

Don’t sugar coat it and try to add sprinkles to make it sound nice. Let’s get down to the rue, how bad do you truly want to know yourself. Name your price. We’re hitting a time where internet, social media, and the ever emerging innovation within tech is changing our lives and keeping the world on call 24/7. This means we are constantly looking at others and gathering information. That is extremely positive but it has also exposed who we truly are. There are endless amounts of content to make yourself better but the question is, what are you doing with it? You can read and scroll and reflect all day, but if you’re not utilizing the information based on fear, anxiety etc. then you’ve submitted to not being you. Again, name your price. What do you want. If you were given all the information and money in the world, what would you do with it? How bad do you want to be that person you daydream about? You have to become a practitioner. Information is a commodity, please do something.

Burdens as a messenger

Learned to look at it for what it is, a message to ponder.

The message

I need to look at my unhappiness as many versions of my inner child asking for attention. By doing this I found what was truly bothering me instead of just feeling uncomfortable. Also acknowledging my tasks for the day realized them into my actions.

I always learn from being mindful

Mindfulness is something I was introduced to bout 10 yrs ago I lost it for awhile. However now it’s back in my life I’m so much more at ease. So thank you mindfulness.......,

Time With My Child

I focused on my youngest child today. We went to buy her brand new dressers for her room. Not a hand me down. We laughed and reminisced about lots of good times. I ran into a store and picked up some of her favorite foods and we ate when we got home. Then she helped me put her sister’s dresser together and the we will put hers together later this week. We then went to get pizza and she ordered for me. She is becoming such a capable young woman. I am so proud of her!!!

Sunday

We must relax the mind and our thoughts, learning to be present in the now. Being grateful and showing gratitude is important to happiness

Sadness

Pushing past sadness it will eventually catch up. I want to confront it so it goes away

Thoughts

If I listen to the thoughts trying to get in it makes me sad. They are sad thoughts, thoughts of my husbands infidelity. Thoughts of all the other women he was with push to be heard in my head. I sometimes hate being quiet because of these thoughts.

Embracing my darker side

Maybe it’s okay to confront those feelings constantly lurking in the back of my mind. I’ll have to experiment with this idea.

Stay strong

I learned that letting my sadness take over me, I will succumb to it if I don’t get rid of it. I have been alive for 14 years, and it hurts to let sadness get in the way of talking to others, as well as anxiety of what they will think about the 14 year old boy expressing his feelings.

My body tells me messages daily.:

I learned that it’s important to take stock of what my body is telling me and to relax into my receiving of those messages.

Breathe

I learned that in the day, not just during these moments of mindfulness, I need to focus on my breath when I am becoming anxious.

music touches the heart

Eyes are the windows Sound vibrations the medium Intangible electric energy radiates the touch of your hand the smile lifts me up laughter is contagious hello in there your are not alone

Messenger

I realized instead of controlling my life all with my own stubborn brain I should relax. Take a break. And listen to the “messenger” thoughts in my head.

Day 3 - 2018

I learned that peace and happiness are choices. I can choose to be at peace and happy within. I can also choose to allow external forces to disrupt my peace and happiness within. Today, on Day 3 I choose peace and happiness within with an ultimate defense that cannot be disrupted or penetrated.

Not feeling lost

When in the grips of Anxiety, it is easy to feel lost. While still knowing who you are, you are not able to be that person and react to the world as that person. When you breathe and focus on your breathing you can calm the thoughts even if you still don’t recognize who you are. And then when you’re no longer entrapped by the Anxiety and you know who you are when you focus on your breathing you can still calm any thoughts of worry or fear. Breathing makes us complete. Focus on your breathing.

I choose Love

It's amazing how easily fear breaks our connection with the universe.

Let us live the life

Sometimes we give the problem big matter , the life is wonderful and easy but we have learn how we deal with difficulties 💗

Negative thoughts

Sometimes I wonder if I ever get a happy ending, always have a nagging thought that something might go wrong or to good to be true. Today is an invitation to listening to my thoughts and understanding the paradigm of such thoughts and destroy it for ever.

Thoughts

I had to try and bring in thoughts. My mind had to grasp for them. They came and went quickly

I’m secretly doubting myself

I know that can do my work - I’m a smart, highly capable person. But what I realized today is that deep down inside, I’m doubting myself.

I️ learned that

From my first session I️ learned that you can really relax when you close your eyes and open your mind

Strange feeling

During my session I allowed my thoughts just go through me and I saw myself in our big seminar room overlooking the parking lot and street. I felt strange.

The Messenger

Pain and emotions and life’s events are messages and spurns to action. Heartbreak means you needed to learn from that other person and that you fear not making the most of deep personal connections.

Breathing

I need to work more on breathing patterns and to be more aware of the surroundings and to let go easier

Breathing

I need to work more on breathing patterns and to be more aware of the surroundings and to let go easier

Messengers

My thoughts are a little scattered these days. Sometimes I think it’s my head, and other times I think it’s my heart leading my thoughts. I need to give myself space and time to learn the difference between when one is speaking. Only then can I understand the true message I need to hear.

Just wanna be me without apologizing

I worked so hard trying to build my self esteem it took years to get here. I know I have a long way to go before I completely be 100 percent. Sometimes people make me feel like I shouldn’t walk around with my head held high but to just walk around depressed and insure I spent years feeling like that I just wanna be happy in my own skin for a chance.

Loved it!

Learned a different way to see things that sometimes bring stress to my life. Those sad and stressing thoughts, sometimes are only messengers so you can pay attention or work on things.

Observing with a little detachment

I can take note of thoughts without letting them affect me. This helps manage my thoughts with less distraction or stress.

Round 2

I really missed meditating. There’s like an ease in my mind. Some weight lifted from me, just a bit not to much but enough to feel the change.

Letting go of thoughts

My tendency to dismiss thoughts through finding “solutions” is less helpful than simply observing the thought.

Day 1

I learned that it is okay to let these “voices” (thoughts) in your head roam around. Just don’t let them consume you. Breathing is key!

Messengers

Lots to attend to day. I just have to remember to breathe and let it be what it is. I don’t have to do it all today. Just open the door

messages

my body and i are not enemies. my body sends me messages, signals when something is wrong or needs attention.

Presence

Being with what us without attempting to shift or control anything is very soothing. It feels kind to myself :::

Are you a good listener?

This meditation invites you to listen to your body, listen to yourself. Learning to listen to my body and learning to do body scans throughout the day is helping me with pain management.

Do not resist

Do not fight or resist the thoughts that come to you or the emotions that you feel. Sit through them. Let them be. You will come out the other side.

Messanger

Take in the breathe of a thousand lights to exhale the darkness polluting one's own mentality

Tiring

I felt sad and tired. It was challenging to sit through the meditation and part of me felt drained from it.

Feelings

It’s always my own state of mind I’m trying to handle. Sadness comes from battling my low self esteem which means I’m not loving myself enough and thinking others should make up for it. But they can’t and I end up even sadder when they don’t understand or can’t love me the way I want and wish. It’s a self fulfilling cycle. Wanting happiness but ending up with disappointment and unhappiness. Expecting too much is destructive for the soul.

Noticing thoughts

I love mindfulness practices like this one because it allows me to take a moment of introspection as to why I am feeling the way I am. Often I am able to correct or target the thing bothering me and help resolve it.

Acceptance

Feeling what I need to feel this morning. I will be okay. I forgot how these emotions are all wanting to be noticed and eventually demand to be felt.

Sunday April 8

I learned that it’s hard to be calm when emotions, sad feelings, rapidly shifting tides, ripples turning to undertows, feeling swept under by nameless pain, is my constant undertone.

Main thing

I learned that it’s most important doing these when your comfortable

Messenger

I learned that negative emotions are just the messenger. They are the carrier of the message of my body trying to tell me something. I want to remember this the next time I experience a negative emotion and try to get to the bottom of what the message is.

Flipping my triggers

I learned how to flip triggers that overwhelm me with sadness. I have to remember that I’m starting a new chapter in my life and making new friends will take time