I feel that I am not good enough, broken, heavy, a burden. He doesn’t want to be around me, he wants his own life.
I have my own life but I have fully invested myself in our relationship, planning a house, baby etc, trying to get my health in order.
If I act out my emotions, I push him away, and if I hide them, I push him away. I need to find a middle ground.
I cannot be angry anymore. I am turning into a monster, I hate it. This is not me... where is my emotional regulation?