A good observance
I need to learn this lesson still. Since my massive stroke and subsequent recovery period, including an excruciating six months in a hospital FAR from home, I’m usually angry, often enraged, at minor and small disturbances in life. I fly off the handle at the drop of a hat. I need, badly, to regain my “chill”! I’m working on it, but still seem to be easy to anger, or mad all the time. I’m usually ready to Hulk-out at the slightest provocation. And since they’re the closest people to me, physically, my wife and children usually bear the brunt (and are the cause) of my unwarranted anger. I realize that that is unfair to them and not good for me, so I try to change...maybe once I hear about my Social Security disability case outcome and begin to realize monetary benefits from that I’ll chill out some. For now though, I’ll be happy to get through another tough holiday season, thankful that I am still alive and here for my family. I cannot (will not) imagine how poor their lives would be if I had passed untimely from this world and their lives. They mean everything to me (and I hope the same is true in reverse!) I just feel like such a failure to them!