I’ve had a lot of loss this year. I lost 3 significant men in my life. One was a good friend and ended in a parting of ways, my choice. One was an ex boyfriend and ended in an inevitable break up, his choice. And one was my husband, my son’s father, he passed away unexpectedly and suddenly, no one’s choice. It feels like I’m under water some days. And other days I feel hope that this feeling is temporary. Today is one of those days. I know what I need to do…focus on the good, and be grateful that I had those relationships, not that they’re gone. But damn, that’s hard. I want them all back. Or do I?