Pulling Myself Back Up
I haven't been meditating much lately, I had a real nice streak, I was so proud of what I had accomplished so far. Then I missed one day, and then another day. Everyday that passed it was easier to say no to a session, and along with that I felt that thick dark mist start to set in. I started to feel worse, more negative. Things that made me anxious and depressed before started coming up again, causing me to spiral a bit. Today was particularly hard with a lot of dark moments and numbness. I felt backed into an emotional corner and as I thought of ways to remedy these feelings, the only thing that didn't seem like too much was meditation. So I went outside to my little chair and sat there breathing in the fresh air while I listened to this, and it honestly really helped clear away some of that darkness, enough for me to finish out my day with mindfulness.