Process Anger Cleanly

I Forgive the Cinema Department Chair

...who was unhelpful, treated me like a waste of his time and a community relations box to check off. Jerk. (Just kidding. Good meditation.) What I know now is nobody cares. But *why should they?* That puts “independent” in independent filmmaking.

A slight lift

I felt that with so much sacrifice I have to do and give to others. Those that don't want to understand me, take advantage of me. This session made me feel I can slowly talk to myself to share my anger, sadness and negative emotions. I hope to recover and forgive those that don't understand me, even if I don't mean it.

I learned

I learned that I can only control what I do and feel, not what others do and feel. I learned that my anger and hurt is valid and is allowed and is present. I learned that I will have to set boundaries and stick to them and not worry about the other persons feelings as a result of pushing passed those boundaries.

I learned that this is not a useful meditation for me

It is easy for me to call up the feelings. It is not so easy for me to let them go. This meditation left me much more agitated then when I began. But I can do one of the meditations that DO help me release anger, and it will be fine. It is ok to try things. It is ok when those things are not a good fit.

Healing

This meditation felt like a lift from my shoulders. Thank you

Process Anger Cleanly

Wow, it was great to follow these steps and be aware of my feelings. I realized that I usually overreact with my kids and that it's ok not to be a perfect mum. Thank you 💝

I felt a ton of emotion at each step. I used this meditation to relate to my parents. Emotional!

I learned how to feel and breathe through my emotions today. Difficult!

Letting go

I learned that I still have a way to go. My emotions are still heightened when I think Of the anger I hold inside, still. I still need to work on the pain and anger.

Cleaning Anger

I learned that I needed to forgive my ex-husband and my mother for not being who I needed to be.

Let go of anger

I learned that my anger and hurt is systemic to my fears. I fear being alone and I put expectations on people to be what I want, and need them to be. Situations that spin out of my control scare me and I become angry when people fall short of those expectations. That’s unfair because we all have our own journey and I can’t expect people to walk in the path that conforms to calming my fears.

Healing

I learned to stop putting expectations on people. These expectations are directly connected with my own fears of being alone. I need to forgive because This anger consumes every depth of my soul and is slowly killing me inside. I walk around doing the motions of life but feel dead inside.

Angry

I felt so anger at first but now that I’ve completed this meditation, I’m not feeling good. My anger has lessen and I can move forward. I will come back to this meditation again whenever I need it again.