In my control
When I listened to this, I thought about when someone yells or becomes very upset around me. I'm calm pretty much all the time. I don't have outbursts like that. I just want to run or get away when encountering this behavior. At first, I tend to try to calm the person and inside I'm thinking, why let yourself get upset about anything like that. Or I clam up. When it continues, I then need to leave or go. If I can't, it's frustrating. I've known people that then take it out on my emotionally and physically. I lose control of my bowels! It just happens. My insides just know a huge storm is coming. I'm currently trying to cease contact with someone I've tried to love for many years. I went through the worst he's given me so far. I'm going to get killed if I see him again at all. He erupts with no warning. Sorry I went on that tangent.