There’s something miraculous that occurs when we breathe in and out from our heart. Letting go of anything that no longer serves us, we gain courage, fortitude, strength and endurance to face life’s challenges.
Even though I’ve been trying my hardest to live with my heart wide open so I can Be Love in Action the past few months, I have found my heart retreating because it has been greatly wounded. Dealing with the emotions of grief for the past week or so, I have experienced anger, withdraw, sadness, even Victimhood, all of which are the opposite of what I consider to Be Love. Because these emotions have dominated my heart from time to time, I have found myself not being in much of a loving mood. Thus, I’ve found it quite easy at times to be frustrated and short with others when I have felt unheard, unseen, or misunderstood. Because of this, I’ve wanted to go further into withdrawal.
This morning, I am taking one last trip to the veterinary hospital so I may bring my beautiful boy, Montee’s ashes back home with me. As I think about this trip, a part of me is excited, another part of me is unsure, and yet, another part of me is even angry. With my emotions all over the place, I fear I may just lose it when I talk to the staff at the veterinary hospital.
Breathing in through my heart space, I began to feel sad. Breathing out through my heart space, I began to let go and immediately, I was met with resistance, as there is a huge part of me that doesn’t want to let go. Because my wisdom says, what you resist, persists, I tried again. Allowing light to enter my heart space, the knots began to loosen some. This allowed for some of what no longer serves me to exit my body on my exhale. Feeling slightly better after a few rounds of doing this beautiful healing breath, I said an intention. May everything I say, do and think today be from a place of mindful loving awareness. May this be so.