It has been a little over three years now since my medical conditions began. I know it could be worse, I know that I will be fine, doctors have found nothing wrong with me. Yet I cannot control myself or stop myself from being stressed, worried, scared, embarrassed, anxious. I was already 17 when I first blacked out, and since then it has happened numerous times due to different situations. The doctors, my parents, and myself know that sometimes it is just me messing with myself. Thus, I want to learn how to relax, to calm myself, and to control myself during these situations. It has only been 3 years, so I know it is normal for me not to know how to handle everything yet. I am still trying to learn to differentiate everything I feel; seperate what is serious and real from what is not. Today is the day I begin to learn to take control of myself and to not be so afraid or anxious.