I had a nice visit with Joan but then looked up Jennifer because Joann asked about her. Saw her post that she’s in love and had the new woman all over her page. Very sad and depressed after seeing that as why wasn’t she like that with me? Her family thought I was part black and didn’t like that she was seeing someone not white. Then ghosted me. I’m tired of being single and going out on dates that they don’t take me seriously. Too young but not even wanting to make it romantic is really hard. Everyone only wants to be friends unless they’re super drunk. I wonder if I’ll ever find someone who loves me that I’m attracted to as well. I’m tired of putting forth the effort and not getting it in return.