What I realized
I learned that, I must let go of what I can’t change and stay stable and firm when I know my thoughts are controlling the feelings. Some half truths mixed with visuals and old fantasies it a powerful mix. But I am a mountain ridged, stable and true to who I am. I am overcoming my suspicious mind by noticing it’s fantasy I am overcoming my jealous heart by realizing that even betrayal is on the other person and nothing to do with me, I will learn trust fully again and soon. I can’t trust because I don’t trust myself.