Not for me
Not for my level of depression, I guess. I don't care if I'm not alone in my suffering. I prefer being alone, in general. I do best in isolation. I am not going to conjure up friendly feelings on a prompt or visualize a welcome mat that I'm not burning. It helps to hear these kinds of meditations, though, because it helps me know exactly what I don't need to hear so that I can cultivate a healthy self-hypnosis of my own. Something that says the opposite. Something like, "You are alone. You've lived through more than most people in their entire lives. You shouldn't have had to go through any of that in order to learn how resilient you are because you've always known. You are broken. You are the stuff of darkness. As dark as night. As vast as space. As deep as the universe. Allow the stars to beckon to you, their beloved brethren. Imagine you are wrapped in a blanket of night. No one can see you. No one can even remember you. You are floating comfortably among the stars. And you can breathe easy knowing that everything else is far away. It no longer matters if you're understood or if you're even happy. Because you just are. And that's all you need to be. On your next inhale, imagine all the love of your celestine ancestors pouring into your soul with the magic of night. Hold in that breath, imagining your body filled with the speckled glow of stardust. And as you exhale, release all tension as you accept the way things are, and just allow yourself to be. Because this is okay. And even though each day brings with it new challenges and stories, the night is always there without fail to comfort you and keep you tucked inside its deep, endless embrace. Imagine you're looking up into the starriest black sky you've ever seen. And instead of looking at the stars, look between them, into the dark. That is what 'forever' looks like. That is literally 'forever'. The unknown, quiet, eternally distant abyss. You will return there someday, but today, for now, you are a human who gets to experience the love and darkness of the eternal night in a way that even celestial bodies cannot comprehend. And while you have a job to do here on earth, it's important to have moments like these. Depression feels eternal because it's so connected with the dark. But the truth is, it's fleeting. So soak it up. Enjoy it while it lasts. Have yourself a good 'dark night of the soul'. And allow your next breath to be a sigh of relief. Big inhale. And big exhale through the mouth. You deserve this time to yourself. To process and move through this space. And remember that it's important to maintain a tether to this world. Because you don't want to get lost. Think of these times as your own personal 'space walk'. They're necessary for processing and for growth. But you must maintain that tether. You'll thank yourself once you're ready for the sunshine again. The night will be here for you any time you need it. After all, what is the sun, but an object in space, a temporary curtain."♥️