It’s just a lot right now
Life sucks some days more than others. Holding the anger in to long turns in to the pain that guides me in the wrong direction.
On my own it’s a wave that overpowers me until I am outside looking in as my life implodes using my hurt to take down everything around me. It begins a new life of its own it’s intent is to seek and destroy anyone close to me.
Just breathe and remember…
If misery loves company then my anger at myself seeks out the pain in all things just to not go through alone without it. Like gravity a force pushing until I can no longer breathe. I must exhale let it go and believe it’s ok to get angry it’s not ok to keep it and grow it into what it was never meant to be. Like a heavy weight around my neck pulling me down deeper into the abyss of my pain. Just breathe and be ok in the comfort that my anger and pain or only momentary bits of time that shall never be the the whole of me. Just release for only I have the key to unlock the chain that binds me. Let go float to the top and breathe again. It’s just a lot right now, but I don’t have keep the weight of it all in myself. Just breathe in the lightness of the fresh air that is only a breathe away.