Working on behavioral change...
As self-aware as I am forced to be, I need to be better about the words that I say to myself or out loud because I know that the power of my voice is enough to stop me in my tracks, as far as chores or other actions I can directly link to trauma and experiences leading to Post Traumatic Stress Injury.
These two experiences are enough to make me completely paralyzed with the feelings that they review within me.
I have to use my voice very firmly to tell myself that I am safe, that I can only use a certain amount of dishes so that I’m not completely overwhelmed with the stress and memories that particular chore creates within me.
I’m going to use my voice to tell myself that I am not surrounded by water, that I’m safe and that I have my cell phone if I ever feel extremely endangered, such as having an aura before a seizure.
I know how they feel, so they’re a clue. I can do this, I believe in me.