I feel good to have an action plan to start my meditation journey. Taking on step feels empowering. I am still struggling. I’m still sad and having self doubt. I still feel like I’m in crisis. I also feel that I have to keep moving forward and find a way to love, comfort and care for myself and wellbeing. I know this is temporary. I have to learn to accept that my future will be different and that I may not get to choose if Clay stays in it, but I have to tell myself that I will be ok.