Change “I should” to “I could”...
I rattled off five “I should”s pretty easily. I could have written more. What does this say about me? When I look at my list, these are all things I am struggling with because of choices I make, but not because I can’t do them. Some are because I have been hurt and disappointed by people, so I protect myself by thinking the worst first instead of thinking kind and positive thoughts about people. Some are because it means giving up things that give me pleasure, but aren’t necessarily good for me. But they’re all my choices. This is very hard for me to admit. I “could” do all of these things. But I choose not to. Is it because they’re too hard? Or is it because I just don’t want to? Somehow, I’ve got to find the positives that will make those things more satisfying than the path I’m currently on. This is why I struggle. I must find ways to change my mindset.