I am grateful for the big picture, the mosaic of little things that make up my life. I truly am blessed. Yet, in this practice I was unable to drill down and be grateful for a thing, or a person. I get fearful; I don’t want a person to get too close. I don’t want my happiness to depend on a thing. Fear? If I let someone/something get too close, it might get taken away? For now, to be grateful, I will continue to stand back, alone and detached, and admire my blessed life from afar. Any closer makes me quite uneasy.