Balance
When I do breathe work or apnea breath hold training I want to be come more calm through the uncomfortable parts. My lungs are not in the best shape. When I get uncomfortable through breath holds or deep breathing I want to stop. But when I remember I need it all for balance. When I can remember that that next breath is coming and I don’t have to fear I become immediately calm. I want to transfer this into all aspects of my life. I have had some many good things. When they are not present anymore I tend to miss and wish and can’t see having them again. Relationships, life experiences, days without back pain, etc. I become jealous of exes and others living in ways I’d like to. I just have to remember that I’ve had those things and I will have them again. And they will be so great when they come. Sometimes I don’t even truly need or even want some of the things I wait for. Apnea training and free diving taught me this. Don’t panic. You’re okay. The surface is there. You will get that breath. Don’t long for it and wait for. Let it come. Hold out a little longer. You really are ok right now. Regardless of money and setbacks. Live right here right now and you’ll never have to worry about tomorrow. It will never come.