Impossible/Possible
I have never loved myself. I don’t love who I am, I don’t love where I am in my life, I don’t love how my life turned out, I don’t love my self image. I just don’t love...me. It seems so impossible, & that I will never achieve it, the ability to forgive myself. Forgive myself for never loving the person for who I am. Forgive myself for never loving, me. I strive for happiness all the time, and a lot, because I’m not happy. I’ve tried achieving it from other people, materials, etc... I’ve known deep down that nothing, and no one can give me happiness, but my own self.
If I learn to forgive myself for never showing myself love, and for never loving me for who I am, I know I will finally be able to feel that true happiness, that I strive for. It’s going to be difficult, but it’s worth it. So I better start practicing this meditation a lot more, starting now.