When It's Too Much
I've been in such a calm, centered, and grounded state over the past few months. I had a jarring event occur last night that ripped me out of my peaceful state. Even listening to this meditation, I couldn't shake it. I feel like I need to find a way to let go of the need for letting the person in my life know what they did warranted an ending to our decades-long friendship, and instead find the strength to not reach out or contact her at all while creating a major boundary & working on forgiveness. Even if that boundary means ending the friendship without ever letting her know. I've always been opposed to the concept of ghosting, but I've finally experienced an event where someone didn't deserve my explanation. But I don't know how. Even know, while writing this, I want to send her a text to let her know that what she did was unforgivable. I feel like I need to get advice from a psychologist. I can't seem to find a meditation specifically for dealing with these kinds of major disruptions. There is a pain in my solar plexus, which is where my anxiety typically hangs out whenever any is present. But no amount of mindful breathing is generating any ease. I'm not sure where to go from here.