Forests & Jungles
I noticed that detailed descriptions and sounds of lush forest and water relax me the most so far. My heart rate won’t slow because I’m stressed about work, but the idea I can go to a place to rest where none of that matters is comforting. I’m disappointed that I’ve been over eating this past week, but my alcohol consumption has dramatically decreased, which is a goal of mine. Tonight was the VP debate. There was a fly on Pence’s head, and Kamala is making use of her charisma. I don’t think the bread and butter approach works for the democratic campaigns right now. People are on the “hot” issues that are systemic. I punched my mattress a few days ago - in my sleep. But I’m feeling more confident. I’d rather be angry than depressed. I learned my lack of motivation cultivated when I stopped seeing the point in believing in anything. My days have been purposeless the last 5 years, and I have nothing to guide me. My passions are unbridled and I can’t stand another moment of caring about something I am powerless to change.