I make a lot of excuses to settle for mediocre. I have set goals that will improve our lives, but something is always holding me back. This showed me that nothing is really holding me back, but myself. My negative belief that it is impossible to change. I need a new home four my four boys, I just need to stop putting off searching just because I don’t feel like going through the process of viewing the homes for the right one. First time buyer, I don’t want to make a mistake. I suffer from sciatica, it has ruined my life. Causing nerve damage to my right leg. My insurance is picky and won’t approve for the mri needed to show the place where the sciatic nerve is being irritated. There is no way to prove it when the only thing that can show nerves in your body is a mri. I am slowly becoming handicapped. I need to fight back. I have been fighting since 2016. I’m tired of fighting. But if o give up now and don’t try harder, I won’t be able to walk and play with my four children that need me. My husband is an alcoholic. He has tried to stop many times. It has caused him to lose his license. Make our marriage rocky since day one. Exposed the kids to alcoholism too soon. But I love him. But if he can’t stop drinking and get it under control, something bad is going to happen one day. But instead of arguing with him, I go and buy it just so he stops being upset.